The Slice

"Advice"

If you're going to wear
your heart pinned to your sleeve,

let it bleed

"If you're going through hell, keep going."
Winston Churchill

It's okay. Well, it is what it is. I can either be honest or say what you want to hear. Either way, we'll understand each other in one form or another. Let's go back to making things ambiguous for now. Hopefully that will let certain other pieces come into focus. If not, at least I can console myself by claiming I didn't spend too much time worrying about it. Yeah, sure.

Until we meet again, my friends--

I embarrass myself at least once a day.

Um... yay? Super deep observations. That's what you keep coming back for.

Okay, bye.

How to get over the Daylight Savings Time slump: Work 9 hours on the day the time changes. Come home at 10:15 at night. Work starts at 7:00, so get up at 6:00 in the morning and work until 6:00 that night. Do it again the next day. You're cured.

(Actually, maybe I should rename that "How to completely lose sense of what time of day it is." Same thing, right?)

So, getting off at 5:00 felt really strange. It was nice, of course, but weird. Don't know when it will happen again. I've been semi-frustrated at work for a few different reasons, but every evening I feel that way, the next day seems to go more smoothly. I wonder if it's my attitude or the nature of the beast.

I've been having trouble keeping up on the news because it takes me out of myself and into a place I don't want to go right now. I know this is bad. I can't bring myself to read it, which is totally stupid and terrible and I don't know what else. It reminds me of a few hypocrisies that have become more and more glaringly obvious to me in recent years, and I don't know if I want to face them yet. I dislike that a lot.*

Earlier, I told a friend to remember that life is too short to be bored and to keep his options open. I don't know how good I am at taking my own advice, especially lately.

A few people are off the list again, not because of anything specific but more because I need to stop thinking any attention I get is good attention (or that this passiveness is going to get me anywhere). That's never been true.

I feel like awesome and awkward are constantly battling inside me. I think awkward is winning these days.

Of all of the people from my past, no one has spring.

I am between wanting something to happen and trying to let go of that desire completely. On one hand, I have so much I want to share. On the other, I have no time or energy at the moment, so why bother?

Line after line gets lodged in my head, though--
He kissed her like it was the only thing in the world that had ever made sense.

It's all silly anyway.

*EDIT: I'm striking this because even though it's still true, it's something I'm going to have to accept and remind myself to work on from time to time. I don't think I want to parse this out publicly, as it was rather histrionic and angsty for me to even bring it up in this forum, but that describes about 90% of what I do here anyway. So, problem not solved, but I'm not perfect. Whatever.

So, you know you'd like to see What's on Weird Al's Netflix Queue?

Ahh, I need to pack so badly, but I don't have very many boxes at the moment. I also need a haircut and to take a walk. Does eating pie for breakfast count as any of those things? bah.

EDIT: I did all those things, so (more) packing can commence. Wait, how is it 4:17 already?! Aw.

Too much crap going through my head at the moment. Think I'm going to go paint, but who knows anymore?

You're going to say whatever you're going to say. I don't really care so much as wish some of it were true.

EDIT: Okay, two hours of painting and a few beers later, I feel fantastic. Weird.

It almost seems ironic
that I figured out what I wanted
just as you walked out for good

Haha, yes. You got me. Very funny.

I've been busy, in case you can't tell.

Miss you. Love you. Hope you're well.

Certain incontrovertible truth--

there is always happiness
grab it while you can

Watching a documentary-style dream this morning, a man said this--

"I've been unwinding that rope for thirty years whether I've known it or not."